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My Fifth Article Published in It's Pop
Do you want to experience the city's pulse, meet new people, participate in various events or have the urge to sin once or twice? Then London is your city. London attracts many different global citizens. London is suitable for all types of people. Everyone will eventually pass through, stop by and perhaps even settle here, temporarily or permanently to create their own experience of London. The first thing I thought of when I moved to London was that the city is absolutely bubbling with life. It is a vibrant city. People are awake at all hours. Here flourishes love, friendships, fights and drama. Here you meet people whether you like it or not. The incredible thing with London is that there is always something going on, whether it is “DotD”, Business, Artistry, Recipe parties, Orgies, Fighting at London’s fight club or attend Dating actions. There is something for everyone. The opportunities are endless. I am delighted and proud to be a part of the city that never sleeps and is a hub for meetings and events. This city ties many marriage bonds and has amazing educational opportunities. Wonderful parks to stroll, various gyms to work off that extra beer, meal or just to stay fit. It offers all types of cafés to drink that first coffee with someone, and clubs to dance and party in. We have our fine hotels where one can have a secret rendezvous or just play with your sexy toy. I have experienced happiness, love and personal development in London. I got married in London, I have given birth in London, I met love in London and I have done numerous business affairs in London. I live, breathe and work in London. For me, London will always be the city where it happens, “The City with Opportunities”, which has it all. My Fourth Article Published in It's Pop
She went, saw and came back. The experience of death had made her feel numb. It had wakened her inner demons. She walks through a park and sees the children's unconcerned play and hears their laughter. She is in an off state. She must find her way back to her inner peace; if it ever existed. She had lived her life fast, and she didn't want to take the time to analyze or to zoom into her inner chaos. Her inner demons where hovering around her. They didn't want to let go, chewing on her energy; her thoughts fading as they threatened to take them over. She had fled long enough. The time had come to face them, make friends, and embrace or fight them off. They had experimented with her life without any thought of the consequences. At present, she has everything she could possibly need. On the outside, all seems perfect. She has love, a family, and a secure future. But on the inside, she drowns. She can’t breathe; she can’t see the point of all the pain she carries within her. She wants answers; answers she will probably never find. She is restless. Everything around her that gives her security suffocates her. Security should not be underestimated or sacrificed. She must be content with her life. Why doesn't she feel satisfied? Why does she feel trapped? Why isn't she happy and lucky as she should be in her situation? She is ashamed and frightened by her thoughts. Why can’t she manage and accept her parents' absence; the permanent absence of death? She wants to float to the other side again. She wants to meet them, see them, and feel their presence. To float in between the worlds of life and death is too intoxicating. But, she had never felt as good as she did then. She just wants to hide and soar again. It was not a cry for help; she knew that between these worlds, she could fight against her inner demons. She could settle things; but, this settlement could end with death. Still, she knew her parents waited for her. Was it time, or should she stay and listen to her parents' advice from the other side, that her settlement would be found in life and not death? How would she be free from the pain of the loss of her parents? The pain cut inside her like razor blades. My Third Article Published in It's Pop
The other side. Is there such place? Or is it just a myth? As an adventurer I had to explore this phenomenon. Should I take the opportunity to experience the other side? If so, will I get to see my mother and father there? Today I looked death in the face. I was greeted by the light, angels, and my relatives. I've been so restless lately but I've shown a façade of contentment. I am satisfied in many ways. I am blessed with love but I am also an adventurer. I'm a seeker. I'm looking for something that I may never understand or find. I'm a restless soul. I saw in an article that there was a psychedelic drug that endangers your life. It also gives you the opportunity to explore if there is something on the other side. Floating between life and death was all too tempting. I've always been curious about death. Especially after my security, my family, disappeared in a tragic accident. However, today I got to see them again; albeit for a short while. It was a breathtaking tickling feeling to see them in the light. They looked so content and so beautiful with their shimmering aura. Images of my life flashed by in memories. When I met my first love by the beach. My first performance at Big Bang. When I had the opening party at my first club I owned in Los Angeles. All my children's smiles flashed before my eyes. The feeling of joy I felt when I had my first child, a son. I felt my lover's warmth and love. My friends encouraging words when I felt discouraged echoed in the background. I heard my parents' words to me when I was little, "All your dreams can come true if you just dare to pursue them”. The thought occurred that I should stay with them. But the wondrous thing was that they whispered to me that my time was not come yet; I had more to experience, overcome and accomplish. I knew then that I had too much to live for and too much to leave to chance. I had to leave my family in the Land of the Dead and return home. I woke up in the hospital with hospital staff around me. The smell of the hospital penetrated my nostrils. The Doctor looked at me questioningly and said“Mrs. Frostenborn What is going on? How are you?” while he adjusted his doctor's coat. What could I say? That I'm careless? That I jeopardize everything for a kick? I said it was a mistake. That I mixed up the medication that I thought was painkillers. I checked out of the hospital against his recommendation but I wanted to go home and reflect on my trip to the land of the dead. Maybe it's not something I would recommend for anyone but I do not regret it for one moment that I did it. To love is not to possess, To own or imprison, Nor to lose one's self in another. Love is to join and separate, To walk alone and together, To find a laughing freedom It is finally to be able To be whom we really are No longer clinging in childish dependency Nor docilely live separate lives in silence, It is to be perfectly one's self And perfectly joined in permanent commitment To another–and to one's inner self. We are openly free to be Who we really are In very core of our being Where true and lasting love can live and blossom. This is my solemn vow I give you my love, I give you myself before the presence of Kobe, our families and friends Nick, I give you my hand and vow to be mindful in our journey together, to love you and to cherish you, to trust in the Universal soul, to have belief in my heart, faith in you and in us. From this day forward our souls will be as one. Will you give me yourself? Will you do this journey with me? Shall we be together as long as we live? I do My second Article Published in It's Pop I would like that the "Popoverse" was my backyard where all of us would feel belonging and warmth. I understand that it would not work in practice but bringing people together through an event would surely not be impossible?
I have always been ambitious and want to reach my goals quickly. I am satisfied that I have manage to keep my family together and take good care of my two club chains with solid artists. I am happy for their trust and have them playing at my clubs. In the middle of it all I wished to develop my pop band. It has gone slowly, but has gotten better and better. There is much to learn and manage, but I'm eager to learn and use my new found knowledge. Why “several irons in the fire”? Well, I get easily restless if I don’t challenge myself. Same thing in love, but in love there is emotion involved. I have met many people on my journey to be where I am today. Different types of people, most of them did not see me; they saw all things around me. I tried, I was looking and I waited. And what? How many times have I heard that love is closer than you think? My love was there, is there, close to me. Always have been. I am now happy to be loved for me, not my accomplishments or my possessions. From this love and solid foundation, I have prospered. I first challenged myself and sign up for "The Sexiest Booty contest 74" It was a wonderful, exciting experience and a crossing boundaries on my part, but nothing I wanted to miss out on. Deep down, I am a shy girl. After that it was Big Bang. The annual festival is something I personally look forward to every year. It gives me a chance to meet up with all my friends, enjoy all the performances and see how I progressed through the past year in my artistry. Others travel there to meet new people and have hopes to meet love. Some tie the knot in Rio during Big Bang and Valentine's Day. It is intense days with festivities and a lot of mingle, I love it. Afterwards, there was a void and waiting until next year to see everybody seemed so far away. It was when I stood in the studio and recorded my single when it came to me; I wanted to make a twist of "The Sexiest Booty contest 74". Only male contestants, female judges and the public would get opportunity to vote. It was then and there that Mʀ. Pᴏᴘᴏᴠᴇʀsᴇ 75 was born. I knew I had to try, no matter what, I would try. I prepared myself for a "belly flop" but if I didn't try I would never know what could have been or not have been. I am a person who loves to organize and plan things; this was a real challenge, as I never organized an event before. I had a rocky beginning; I advertised wrongly and got my share of less encouraging words to be discreet. I did not let it beat me down; I had similar experiences when I first started up my clubs. After rocky start people began to contact me and wanted both judge and participate in Mʀ. Pᴏᴘᴏᴠᴇʀsᴇ. I was pleased that, more than I thought, it was a funny and good idea. I wanted to bring people together, mingle, have fun and involve as many people as possible. Therefore, I introduced a novelty, that the public would be able to vote. With the judges, public and participants it worked, Mʀ. Pᴏᴘᴏᴠᴇʀsᴇ became floating. What a feeling, it was not a hit but not a flop. When competition started everyone was able to see these gorgeous men and experience their humorous side. They tried to charm and bribe the female judges and public with gifts and dates. Amazing. People meeting each other, chatting and having a good time while laughing was a tremendous gift. Thanks to all who, in any way, participated in Mʀ. Pᴏᴘᴏᴠᴇʀsᴇ. Without you it would not have been an event just an idea that was floating around in my mind. I dared, I did it, and I learned a lot from the event. It whetted my appetite to launch Mıƨƨ Pᴏᴘᴏᴠᴇʀsᴇ 75. I wish and hope that Mıƨƨ Pᴏᴘᴏᴠᴇʀsᴇ will be even greater; reaching out to more people, get more people together and that more people feel involved in the event. It remains to be seen. Is it possible to love more than one? Yes!
No one wondering about my ability to love all my children, friends and family simultaneously and equally. I possess the ability to love several, everyone possesses the ability; I think what stops us from living out that ability is ourselves. Our dream of togetherness, live as one, as a couple. I've left live as one behind me. I live for the moment, minute, hour and day. I live in togetherness with my Spouses and Friends. All people are different. My opinion is that everyone has its path to walk and must be allowed to do so. I love my partners equally. I respect them. They are invaluable to me. They fill different needs within me, I need them, I cannot choose. They do not ask me to choose. That is true love for me. Does that mean I want to sleep with everybody? No, but I cannot stop my heart from feeling, my body to crave and stop my mind to wanting to be satisfied. I'm a polygamist! Interview with "Latin Kiss": A real Latin gentleman
Have you ever tried meeting up with a good friend who is famous, for an interview? I did. I went to have a drink with Jinxx Stormborn, band leader of "Latin Kiss" at his hotel and this is what happened... The time was set at 19:00 in his hotel. What a star. Even though I'm his friend, I had to make an appointment to meet him. Not only that, I had to share my time with everyone else who was there and wanted to swarm around this hot Latin gentleman during this gathering. I agreed to share him. Not only would I find out more about him, but he would also help me with my first attempt to write an article for the magazine, It's Pop!. I had prepared the questions and had a photographer who stayed in the background. Around a 18:45, I arrive at Jinxx’s hotel which was pretty fancy. The man at the reception desk told me the meeting was taking place in a bar around the corner. I imagine velvet sofas and champagne fountains, however, it's actually just in the public hotel bar, a bit towards the back. There are some people from the label already milling about. I have a chat with Jinxx’s manager who seems nice. He tells me some bits about Jinxx’s upcoming schedule, which all sounds really tiring. At 19:30, still no Jinxx. Fancy people always come in late. I start sipping a glass of white wine they offer. There are nibbles: mini pizzas, tortillas and various snacks. Oh Jinxx, where are you? Just as I shove a mini pizza in my mouth, he arrives. He’s wearing a trucker cap and had fallen asleep from jetlag. Apparently he was in Budapest the day before doing some promo. [We embrace] Tilde Frostenborn: Hello Jinxx, how are you? You seem to have a pressed schedule. Jinxx Stormborn: Hi Tilde, I'm good, long time ago, missed you... How are you? TF: I'm fine, but this meeting is about you, The Latin star, not me. I'm glad you took the time to let me tell a little about you as an artist and as an individual for your fans. [We sit down, the volume of media people around is high. I look at my pad and the interview begins] TF: When you performed earlier this year at the Big Bang and the Popopalooza, we got goose bumps. You got far in these competitions and you are now ranked number 24th in Latin Music band. How does it feel to be so famous? JS: Well, I'm far from being famous... Today, I'm the 24th Latin Music as you said. I have great plans to next Big Bang. I'm pretty sure that I can be one of the best Latin Music bands next year and I can reach the top 10 of Latin Music by the end of next year with the release of my new album “Latin Kiss Collection v.3” (merchandising) that will be available on the bests stores on April 13th. TF: You must have some intense female fans. Have you ever had a scary encounter? JS: Yes, I have lots of female fans. Some are behaved, some are intrusive. The scariest encounter I had was with an intrusive fan. At the restaurant, she pulled her chair right next to mine; she squeezed, held on my arm and did not let it go for two long hours. When I left the restaurant I was sure that my next stop would be at the hospital to amputate my arm. But, I did not need to then. The scary part was when I arriving at the hotel, I had to face this furious girl again, after leaving her at the restaurant in rush. She did not appreciate that and this time she made sure to punch my arm until I felt pain. Darn... I felt a lot of pain. [laughs] TF: What’s your motivation after so many years in the music business? JS: My motivation is to write my name in the history of music for the whole world to see and for my children and grandchildren to have their pride and seek inspiration from someone who loves them. TF: What would you be doing if you weren't a musician? JS: I really do not see myself outside of the music world. I'm not good with words, so I'm not good to be a columnist of “ It's Pop!” and I am very relaxed to be a businessman. I think the only career I would aim at is being special agent and hunt “lawless” around the world. TF: What’s the most unbelievable rumor ever been printed about you? JS: Rumors? Well, I can say that everything you've heard about me is true: I am beautiful, charming and fragrant and I call and send flowers next day. [laughs] Actually, I'd rather not hear rumors about me. Malicious rumors only hurt and don’t bring anything good to our, my life. I live my life without paying attention to what people say about me, and I am very happy that way. TF: Is it hard to maintain a relationship when you’re out on the road? I know you're engaged to be married! JS: It's never hard when the love is stronger than the distance... I love you, Lynn! [makes a heart with the hands to the photographer] TF: We've seen a lot of pictures of you with your family. What’s the best thing about family and friends? JS: The best thing about family and friends is: they are always ready to be by your side when you need it. Family and friends are the people who really deserve your dedication. TF: What’s next for you? JS: I will have my first son, Thor, in a few weeks. Then I will marry the most beautiful woman in the world. What comes professionally in my artistry will be welcomed, but always my family and friends first. As Jinxx finishes, I think to myself that he is such a solid man, a real legend...a real Latin gentleman. TF: Thanks Jinxx’s, for taking the time from your busy schedule. I'll let you delight your fans now. We must soon meet again, and not through your manager [blinking an eye] He disappears in the crowd of record label people and VIP invited fans... Was in a shell but I'm breakin out Ain't go let nobody chain me down I'm stronger now You're the reason I'm inspired You thought you left me burnin in the fire But like a phoenix baby I'll survive and blaze the sky Now that you're out of my life This is my genesis A total metamorphosis Didn't think that I could handle this But you gon' be a witness Watch me evolve Through the heartache and pain From the way you left me I'll be still here standin Watch me evolve Redefine myself before your eyes Before you know it you won't recognize This girl 'cause I'll be so out of your league By then you'll have a load of regrets But I won't be tryin to hear it I'll be over it Goin through that final stage This is my genesis A total metamorphosis Didn't think that I could handle this But you gon' be a witness Watch me evolve Through the heartache and pain From the way you left me (from the way you left me) I'll be still here standin Watch me evolve Through the passing judgment All the trials and sufferin (Imma make it through it all) Imma make it through it all Watch me evolve Was in a shell but I've broken out That was then, this is me now From a lost one to the found Watch me evolve And a few words from the wise Never ever let 'em see you cry (never ever let 'em see you cry) I'm down but Watch me evolve Through the heartache and pain (heartache and pain) From when you left me (I'm not the same) I'll be still here standin Watch me evolve Through the passing judgment All the trials and sufferin (all the trials and sufferin) Imma make it through it all Watch me evolve No matter what it is (no matter what it is) I'll always find a way (I'll always find a way) I'm come too far So I'm gonna say Watch me evolve Through the passing judgment (judgment) All the trials and sufferin (all the trials and sufferin) Imma make it through it all Watch me evolve Part one
A blog about Tildes past and thoughts! When Tilde was a newbie she had two friends, one female and one male. She and her ppm was naive and got courted by a girl character, Tilde told her that she wanted to be with a male character. That character did a sex change, without Tilde knowing, It was a birthday gift, what a gift!? The character/ppm told Tilde "Now I never will be able to have kids so you stay with me and we adopt or you do artificial insemination". She thought it was a bit strange to be a male ppm and play girl in the game, but she did not condemn it. She just thought it was somewhat weird and was new in the game. She Of course told her two friends and they also thought he was strange and weird. He must be weird, nobody play female character and are male ppm from start, just if they have family and then you give boys to male ppm and girls to female ppm. They told her to be careful. Meanwhile her female friend said he flirted with her. Tilde did not want to stay and she wanted to move on. He/she told her she could break if she needed to and she did. Then the ppm/character got really mad and wrote a blog that he/she invested time and money and that Tilde have used it. But Tilde never forced him. Tilde and her ppm invested time in their relation as well. The reason she wanted to break with him/her was that her female friend told/send her about some messages where he/she kissed her. Her female friend also broke with him, she wanted to sympathies with Tilde and her ppm: Her female friend thought he/she was disrespectful to Tilde/ppm. Tildes female friend lied to her, she talked to him behind her back and lied about it. Tilde did not know that at this point. At last she met her first love, the one she wanted to give her virginity to. He swept her of her feet, proposed to her, they had real chemistry. Her female friend and her male friend thought she should leave him too and break the engagement. According to them, he had multiple characters (family by relatives as it turned out). How could she trust him? Her female friend said "I would never accept that, he just plays you, when he gets bored he will move on to his other characters". The funny thing is that the male friend, who agreed with Tildes female friend, have at least 10 characters himself (not only relatives). Tilde and her ppm did not know that at this time. Sadly she listened to them, her own choice of course, but her mind was clouded by their thoughts. She broke the engagement. She was worth so much more than these two last guys her female friend said. Meanwhile she talked to Tildes ex fiancee and wanted them to be friends. She told him Tilde was crazy to let him go, Tildes female friend never thought Tilde would find out, she did not know they would get back together later. Tilde and her ppm got stabbed in the back by this female friend. Real bad! Not once, not twice..When Tilde/ppm found out about her betrayal she broke with her and everyone around her. Part two After the broken engagement, she felt lonely and sad. Wanted to fill her life with something else than clubs and performance. She decided she wanted to adopt and she got in contact with a character named Delphine. She wanted to adopt her three year old daughter to Tilde Tilde was over the moon and transferred money to Delphine. The problem was, it was all a scam. Tilde never got the child nor her money back. She scammed several other characters the same way and finally got killed by the red robes and devs. Karma Some of the scammed characters wrote about it in forum and one of them mentioned Tildes name which resulted in one person sending her a message. The one who dropped her a message was Tildes next boyfriend and later fiancee (X). He told her he had a girlfriend he did not like and wanted to follow Tilde around. He needed a restart after his ex wife who took his child. I as a ppm thought it was cute that he wanted to follow her on tour. Tilde wanted to forget her past and told him her heart was broken; she longed for her ex fiancee. He said he had nothing to do in the game and felt lonely. Tilde wanted to take it slow and when he kissed her she got frighten, frighten that her ex fiancee would believe she lost her feelings for him. X showed to be very clingy. When she tried to buy clubs he followed her even when she told him she wanted some space . She told him, in a nice way, that she needed to think, that she still had feelings for her ex fiancee. He got sad and said he always was abandoned and never left anybody?! He left the girl in London without any thought, but Tilde and her ppm did not think too much about it. Tildes ppm had a guilty conscience about Tildes feelings towards her ex. After a while she realized she could not proceed with X, she wanted a new try with her ex and told X. Tilde got back to her ex, sadly this time real life got in the way for them. X wanted her, her ex fiancee wanted her and she was torn between them. X said he would always be there, support her, love her and help her. After a while she chose to go back to X and they got engaged. He soon told her he wanted a child, a son. Tilde was on tour and it was not the best time, but to make him happy she got pregnant. Soon came a little son. Tilde and her ppm got told, all the time, he was sad, all was wrong, nothing was good. He wanted to be in her band so he could sell his plane because he needed money for a company. He said it wouldn't affect her band, he would write songs, do set list and help her out, share the work with her! After a lot of thinking she agreed but as soon as he was in the band and got his record studio he was changed. He did not want to skill for the band or help out. The band got worse and worse. She told him, please be active but he wanted to get "other skills". She didn't ask much of him, only for him to get the skills Basic showmanship and Sex appeal. She helped him with his company and told him how many employees he needed, did flyers for him and so on but he did not want to keep his promise to help her. She got disappointed and did not want an inactive band member and kicked him out. He did not want to leave on his own because he had no plane. She gave him credits to buy one and put up an add to get hold of it for him but he just wanted to be in her band. He was sad, sad and sad. Tilde could still not forget her ex fiancée, all the time faith where against them. She told Xs ppm that she had to be honest; Tilde can’t be with X, you don’t keep your promise, you are just sad. In an attempt to make him happy.Tildes ppm adopted Leona to him. He got ecstatic, he wanted to be with her, she was a virgin and he wanted to take Eau de Ponce to match her age. All solved thought Tildes ppm and Tilde. But no, it was not solved. She got back together with her first love, her first man. Because Tilde broke their engagement earlier on false grounds, sadly they could never build the trust again between them and get a chance to work again as a couple and finally he took his life because they could not make it in the game as a couple. Her ex fiancée X suddenly got mad after he had taken Leonas virginity, he said he live in sin with his stepdaughter and need to separate real life from the game? He said he felt it was incest to be with her. I did all I could to make him happy but he could not say to my face that he wanted to move on. He had to blame his "sinful living" with Leona. My puppet and I as ppm broke with him and wished for him to have a happy life and that he would take care of his son. That was the plan but no, he just ignored (and still do) his son and tell other people that I am a bad person. He immediately got a new girlfriend but instead of focusing on her he kept on writing about what a bad person Tilde are. That's sad, just sad... Tilde moved on, got flirty and didn't want to be exclusive to anyone. She met some who wanted to restrain her, but no, really it was not for her. This new guy who, in the beginning said he was fine with her living soon changed and called her a poly bitch when he could not control his own jealousy. No wonder she started to like girls and was together with a female. Through that, she knows now that she is sapiosexual. She went on and enjoyed her time of solitude after a life full of must-haves. When she attended her "sister's" wedding on Christmas Eve, they met. The man who caused her to lose her foothold. He courted her and they decided create a future together. She was in a euphoria and waited their daughter. As fast he had swept into her life, he disappeared. Sad story, but in the background there was someone who had always taken care of her, been by her side, someone she had warm feelings for. He became her safe harbor, is her safe harbor. After every failure to reach ONE special love, she now tries out polygamy. Who knows what the future will bring? Only time will tell. Part three This part is the best part. The girl from the past... To be continued.. |
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